It’s been a little while since I last blogged, and I admit, I’ve had some hesitation as to what to say next! LoL, but as I was graciously reminded today, the simplest thing to do is usually the best thing to do. So! I’m just going to simply recap what’s been up this past week :)
I feel like so much has happened, but it’s all been incredibly blessed, and I’m so thankful. LoL reflecting on the last few “new” pictures I was tagged in on Facebook,I am reminded of what a wonderful weekend my friend Alesia Davidson and I had. She came down from Auburn to visit me in Pensacola from Friday evening to Monday morning, and truly it was a great time. :) We ate french toast deliciousness, fresh berries, yummy crab cakes, turkeyveggieburgers, and other healthy meals. Saturday, we woke up, lol watched Across the Universe, headed down to where I work for a tour of the island (yes, I work on a man made island. it’s beautiful :) ), met up with my co-worker Ethan, who’s great btw, and we all went to the beach with fishing gear, badmitton equipment, towels, coolers, and snorkling things haha. We pretty much spent the day there. THEN! afterwards, we all headed back to my apartment (after showers of course lol) for the crab cake extravaganza, with a black bean succotash, a delicious multi-grain french loaf from Publix (no doubt), and a yummy fresh side salad. Praise God for His goodness when He made food. Yum :) These are blessings.
Then Sunday, we got up together, had a quick breakfast and headed to church! It was a blessing for us both, and it was a dual blessing for me (which I’ll come back to a little later). It was a very loving environment, and we both left feeling happy we came. Then we headed back down towards the beaches and I took her by a restuarant called Hemingway’s just off the Pensacola Beach strip. If you know me, you have to know I prefer eating out only on few occassions, or if we’re just meeting up for the day. Otherwise, If I can cook, that’s what I wanna do. Also, who has money to pay these silly prices for food I could cook with less grease and more fresh yummy goodness? But anyway, not to complain, we went and roasted outside on the patio there haha (or at least I did), but finally ended up at the beach where I passed out for the first time ever on a beach. LoL don’t get me wrong. I’ve closed my eyes on the beach before, but never before have I literally SLEPT on the beach LoL! The water was beautiful though.
We ended our Sunday night with the turkeyveggieburgers I mentioned, a nice sit on the patio :), and finally an end game of badmitton! Secretly, we’re training for the badmitton olympics. I’ll keep you posted. ;) but anyways, it was just so much fun - hahaha not to mention, we did try to play badmitton in the ocean/on the beach. Wind & having to tread water to hit the birdie=not successful, but hillarious and tiring.
So as you can see, great time :) But what really blessed me, was just that she and I got to spend quality time together, enjoying each other’s company, and we also got to fellowship together and talk about the Lord. It had been my heart’s desire to encourage her in her walk with the Lord, just knowing how amazingly beautiful and necessary it is for the life that you really want to lead. I was blessed to at least have had the chance to share that with her. I hope she was blessed as well :)
Otherwise, this week has been amazing - but of course filled with its ups and downs :) Work in and of itself has been great, but Tuesday (or was it Weds?), we ran into some snags with some of our experimental findings. In a nutshell, we’re experimenting with different media that we can use to embed tissue in before we section/cut it - but an embedding media that won’t interfere with the mass spec’s readings of the tissue’s protein content. However, we have to basically freeze everything immediately (or the proteins in the tissues degrade), and we were using liquid nitrogen, which was, unbeknown to us at the time, too cold. Thus our samples were cracking when the tissue was embedded in it and both were frozen - thus they weren’t working. SO, we switched over to dry ice/ethanol and things are much better :) I’ll be excited to see how all of this turns out. [lol I also apologize if that didn’t make very much sense. just take me at my word :) ] But basically, work is great, and always changing. Everyday, something interesting and unexpected presents itself. I am sooo, so thankful God has this picked out for me. His blessings are far more than we could have ever asked for, dreamed of, or imagined. Even though I knew I wanted to work here, I know He led me to applying, I know He opened the doors, blessed me in finding housing, and has been leading me in how to be the best employee/little worker bee/tree hugger I can be! It’s a pleasure to serve our Lord and work for the EPA :)
In terms of other wonderful events this week [coming back to the dual promise], I was encouraged to attend the same church’s midweek service this Weds to see if I’d want to start attending regularly. While I have always been hopeful and prayerful, I had to fight off thoughts that God may not have had a divine plan for where He wanted me to start attending church. The thought brought me down a bit on Tuesday. I was just reading today in a book by Dr. Robert Frost, Aglow with the Spirit, that we always sink in spirit before we sink outwardly. So I had to push those thoughts away! And sure enough, Weds night at their midweek service was AHmazing. They welcomed me, one memeber named Rhonda invited me to come sit by her since I was by myself, the message was Word based and I could sense that I was going to be able to grow there, and at the end, people were so kind to lay hands on me to pray for me, I met many of them, and had a beautiful talk with Rhonda at the end. She also told me she was going to introduce me to the Sunday school service for the College and Career equivalent at their church :D I was hoping for that, had JUST been talking about how much I wanted that type of fellowhsip again :) He is sooo faithful. Especially when we’re seeking something in accordance with His will. How amazing is He!!
LoL you know. I wonder sometimes how people who have known me for a while must feel when they see how much I’ve changed in such a short time in my relationship with the Lord, but how having a relationship with Him has only made it possible for me to be more myself - and especially more loving, open, and kind. God is there. He is so real it amazes me. LoL and He is faithful and He will reveal Himself to you, if you ask Him to. He wants to! There is such a grace knowing for sure that you have a relationship with Him.
I think a lot of people get stuck on several things. You name it, there’s been something said by someone that would perhaps make you wonder, well why would I want to have a relationship with Christ? Recently, someone said to me that they didn’t want to be in a relationship with “a god” who condemned people to hell for not believing in Him. As I think on that now, I have to say I think that person is a little ahead of themselves lol. Because first, when you see what it really means to have a relationship with Christ, you recognize and find something that is better that anything else you could ever experience in this life without Him. The best advice I eveerrr received was “You need to fall in love with Jesus.” At the time, I didn’t know how to do that or even what it really meant, but I knew I had to do it somehow. And Jesus never let me down. I simply started by doing what I knew to do: I went to church, surrounded myself with those who already had a relationship with Him for both encouragement, guidance, and support, and I read His Word. I read it everyday, as much as I could. And after about 4 or 5 months, today, I finally finished reading the entire Bible :) Malachi, btw, the last prophetic book before the New Testament is a treasure in and of itself. The experience blessed me beyond my WILDEST imagination. and finally, I knew what it meant to fall in love with Jesus.
The walk isn’t always easy. You come up against things like doubt, fear, and just a sheer lack of feeling like you know what to do. But when you do any or all of those things, you have to learn how to listen to the Word and trust in it and lean on it, despite of what might be going on around you or inside of you. And always give everything to the Lord in prayer. He is faithful to hear you, answer you, and get you on the right track of your heart is earnestly and sincerely seeking Him. It’s an amazing journey, one you cannot and will not regret or feel sorry that you went on, if you really take it. What that person was missing in his or her thought about Hell and worshiping God is that when you have a relationship with Christ, you will love to worship Him, to talk to Him, to praise Him, and to follow Him because you will have realized all He’s done for you, how much He loves you, and who He is to you as your Lord and Savior, even from hell.
Hahaha one of the first things Rhonda said to me after we talked a moment or two about God’s goodness was, “They just don’t understand.” And it’s true. I remember after even having a faint inkling of what it meant to have a relationship with Christ that I realized that people just don’t understand what it means! There is just a true lack of understanding until you decide to seek and find for yourself. The Lord said knock and the door shall be opened, seek and you will find. Not that you might find, or that perhaps the door might be a little cracked if you come knocking - but that if you step out on faith, you are going to find Him because He’s always been waiting for you :) Lovingly, hoping you would come home. God is home. <3
My spirit feels very strongly about the truths of feeding your spirit. Just as you can feed your body junk food constantly, and eventually end up getting sick or worse, if you don’t feed your spirit the right things - and the only right things can be found in Christ because He is righteous, as is His Father, Our Father in Heaven, and their Holy Spirit - it too will wither, become emaciated, lash out, act impulsively, get itself into other situations, or, even worse, convince itself that it’s not actually hungry after all. Or that perhaps junk food is the way to go. But, that’s not enough. And one day, as our bodies deteriorate and pass away, our spirits too go on to either go be with the Lord or not. It’s always been about choices, but God is a Father and a Friend and always blesses the choice to follow Him with all of your heart, mind, body and strength. He will supply the rest. God supplies the increase.
I was thinking the other day that our generation is a very interesting one, and sadly I feel that those younger ones coming after us aren’t being exposed to much more either. I once had a sweet dear friend tell me that every generation probably feels like the world is crazy and out of wack and that their situation is far worse off than the last. But honestly, I have to say that just in knowing how all this is supposed to go, we’re not progressing towards better-dom (has anyone looked at the news lately? I haven’t, I don’t have TV, thank goodness. But I still know stuff is crazy). The world, sadly, grows darker, and there are sooo many distractions in the world, trying to pull us away fom those things that are holy, are sacred, are loving, are just plain good for us. I mean I’ve been there, I’ve done that. I’ve thought of doing things, and I am no different than any other person who was once lost but has now been found. But, there is a light in the world, and all things created are His :) I’m certainly NOT saying there isn’t goodness in the world, but true goodness is found in Him :) Not saying that there aren’t nice unsaved people either lol. But you’re not complete yet without Him. When you experience His love and find Him, you will be so graced by the beauty of His presence in your life as you yield to His spirit. Ultimately, that does mean that you have to leave some things behind. Relationships you shouldn’t be in (and you’ve probably already felt the tug, but are still just holding on for dear life anyway), habits you probably should have avoided (some of which you have tried quitting but had troubles with, or some you just don’t want to acknowledge aren’t right to begin with), fears and doubts (because to walk this walk, you have to walk by faith and not by sight, though God will reveal His goodness and mercy to you in the land of the living), and that wily sense of self determination and pride that so often besets us, making us think we know it all, when we really just don’t :). I had to let go of things, things I didn’t know if I knew how to rationalize to myself or others for letting them go other than that I knew God wouldn’t want me doing or thinking on them. But that was enough. And He has replaced any and all of those things with so much more…. you won’t even miss them if you give them to the Lord and let Him replace them with His goodness. God can make anything new, and He is faithful to continue the good work He begins in you. But it’s a cooperative process, and certainly a process above all things. He’s still working on me! But I thank Him for that :)
Overall, I see my generation in a lot of bondage. drug and alcohol abuse. inappropriate sexual relationships on all kinds of levels. violence. self abuse. depression. you name it, it’s there. And I’ve walked through many of those things myself. but walking out of them and into the arms of the Lord was THE only “best” thing I’ve ever done. Everything else that is good in my life comes second to that one decision. It’s the only one that will ultimately matter, though surely the rest of our lives matters as well :) And you know, I don’t share these things to try to belabor or judge or make anyone feel left out in some way. None of that is something I would want to do, or mine to do at all. The Holy Spirit convicts our hearts and moves us into humble submission when we are ready to accept and receive. But I share these things because they are my testimony, and as a witness for the One I love who loves me, and everyone else, it is my great desire that many more would come to know His goodness as I have. There is always an abundance in Christ. You will never be left alone or without in Him. He will sustain you because His strength is made perfect in our weakness :)
So anyway, basically, find life. Because Jesus said He was the way, the truth, and the life everlasting :) I love you all, and blessings as always! <3